Yeah, so I think I'll talk about yesterday. Yesterday was great. Or at least it was until around dinner time when I decided to go online. And what happened there, which I will not say since it should be kept private got me soooooo completely upset that I ended up sitting in my room crying until 2 am. But fortunately, I did write down what I felt, which I think I'll share.

God, I'm so not happy right now. What a CRAPPY week it's been. I hate cryers and now I'm such a hypocrite cuz I've cried myself to sleep practically every night this week. And it's not just any one thing that's been making me so upset. Why did it all have to happen now?
Maybe it's just PMS, I really don't know. I'm just so angry. Nobody can just let me be happy. A few hours after I get home, I start feeling kinda' ok, but then someone comes along and starts yelling in some way shape or form and it all flies out the window! They all criticize, everyone judges. She's so dumb, she's fat, she's ugly, she's so out-of-it, her self-confidence is so low. Well, you know what? I am all those. I'm also a selfish self-pitying bitch who tries to make everyone happy and knows so little about others that things always just gets twisted around, and what was done with good intentions just comes back and bites me on the ass. All I want is someone to just listen and not judge, not comment, just agree and let that be the truth. No, "Of course you're not stupid," or "You're the smartest and prettiest person I know," cuz we all know that I don't want to hear it.
And yes, I'm indirect. I'm indirect becuase I'm constantly worried about making someone angry or someone sad. And I'm always afraid that I'll end up saying something that calls to mind some unsavory character who everyone disapproves of, which makes my already prominent hypocrisy all the larger.
People, words hurt A LOT. They hurt you, but sometimes you don't stop to think if they hurt others. I know I don't, and that's definitely not a good thing. At the moment though, I've got a lot of other friggin issues to sort out so I just can't deal with that. Damn, that desert sounds better every day.

And I gotta say, that desert does sound very very good.