Lonely

Tonight I am stricken with a feeling of incredible loneliness. I'm also stricken with an incredible urge to lose weight and look like a super model... Damn you, Project: Runway. Why did you have to destroy my carefully contrived feeling of confidence?! And why am I not already in Pittsburgh, hugging Benny-bean?
Ah well, don't you worry, everyone, about the whole losing weight thing. The loneliness manifested itself in the form of craving, and I downed quite a few of my Milano cookies this evening, along with half a pomegranate (all the time thinking of Persephone and possibly extending the winter into god knows how many months due to the voluminous amount of seeds encompassed within that little chunk of fruit), and some of mommy's yummy sweet potato and ginger soup. Dessert soup, mind you. And it may not sound too tantalizing, but oh, you're wrong, it is the yummiest dessert soup in the world.
So yes, the loneliness and hopelessness I am currently feeling has me trolling the internet, looking for something, anything, that can confirm that I am not an ugly person, that I might be wanted somewhere, somehow, that I might be something significant to someone. Damn you, Project: Runway... Damn you, geography... Damn me and the fact that I just can't be happy with myself...