I just came back from watching the movie, "Love Actually." It was a very enjoyable movie, but it left me walking away really sad. It's Valentine's Day, and everyone is with someone. I was talking to my friend and I realized while we were talking, it's not that I want to find that perfect someone. I want someone to find me. I don't want to be the one who has to offer the option of a relationship. I want to be offered, I want to know that someone finds me attractive and interesting, and thinks about me when I'm not around. I want to know that maybe, somewhere, someone might think of me fondly, and maybe even in...not so innocent ways. Is it a selfish thing? It probably is, but just knowing that someone, completely of their own volition may be interested in me, that would be nice, it would make life...well...nice. It hurts to watch my guyfriends salivate over other girls in my presence, as I'm just "one of the guys." It really makes me wonder, does anyone even think of me in that way?